Choices

So much of life seems to be choices but so many people seem to abdicate responsibility. We act as though external forces have more control over what we do and what we are than we could ever have. And yet, it really does boil down to choices. Don't like your job? What's keeping you from choosing to change it? Money? Then your choice is money. Not that that's bad. But understand that you do make the choice. It isn't forced on you no matter how much you want to believe it is. Feel like you aren't getting anything done, that you are just treading water? It is because you choose to. Hard sentiments, I know. I don't want to face them any more than anyone else does.

When I was in high school, I had/got to prepare a speech to try to become a commencement speaker. My topic was the fear inherent in being nobody but yourself. Needless to say, I didn't get selected. But as I type this, I realize the issues I raised almost 20 years ago are still relevant to me today. Whoever I am, I chose to be this way - whether by active choice or passive neglect. Whether I am happy or unhappy with who I am, I am exactly who I choose to be. The only question is whether or not I really want to be who I am. And I do .... with some alterations. But that's ok. That's a choice too.